Yeah, just having a drink and smoking."
"You got another one of those?"
"The bourbon, or the cigarette?"
"The cigarette." He said.
"Yeah." I handed him one.
"I got you something before I left Seattle. It took all the money I had saved up, but I wanted to get you something.
He said handing me a small box. "Aaron you shouldn't have. I don't deserve it." I said handing it back to him. "Fine then if you don't open it I will."
Aaron started to open the package. It was a jew lry box. Fuck was the first thing that came to my mind. Why is he buying me jewelry? He opened it towards me. It was a beautiful gold band. He took it out of the case and looked at me. "Zac?" He said.
All I could do was look at him. He kept staring at me.
"Zac? Planet Aaron to Planet Zac. Come in Zac." He
said sarcastically.
"Huh, what? Oh, yeah Aaron..."
"Hey it is not what you think it is. It is just a
token of our friendship. Look I have the same one."
He said smiling.
"Aaron, I can't do this. I don't know what I am supposed to do right now. We have had this talk over and over and over again. You don't express your feelings to me, and when you do they are extremely fucked. Remember the first time we got drunk together? You cried on my shoulder Aaron. I said some things to you that had to of hit a nerve. All the things I told you I would never take back in a million years. I love you with all my heart. When you tell me you are not ready for a relationship and then I find out that you were in one that fucks with me a lot. Nothing you do will ever change the way I feel for you. You have told me to date other people. Tried that didn't work. All I think about is you. I love you." I looked over at him.
I looked in his eyes and into his heart. Please just tell me what you feel. That is all I have ever wanted him to say. "Zac, I don't know what I want. I am just as confused as you are. I know that if a relationship were to happen between you and I. It would be perfect. I don't think that I am ready for perfect yet. When we are together something happens. I want to know what that is before I commit to anything. In all reality, the ring is a promise ring. Promise me you will always be there for me..." "You know that whenever you need me for whatever reason, I am there. I don't need to promise you anything. You should already know these things. But I take this ring as a guarantee that I will always do everything I can to help make you happy in anyway possible." I said holding his hand.
